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Sage And Quartz

Has it already been five years?
I don't like to think that I cling to the past, but I have to admit I think about you a lot. Your books are on my shelves, your crystals decorate our house, and I can rarely burn incense or walk through the desert or have a cup of tea without thinking of you. Yes, it is after midnight, officially November 7th. Maybe I'm just tired, but I think for a minute that I can smell you-- lavender and sage smoke--  and I realize exactly what day it is.
I miss you.
I wish I had known you a little better, a little longer.
I wish I'd been closer to you. &nb

Now it's been six years.

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Simply UnfairI don't know how to tell you that I'm not who I've been in front of you and I just don't love you like I loved him in fact I don't think I'll ever love you that's just how it is
and the last time I was myself-- how bitterly I recall it, my arms around him,
burying my face in his neck, the smell of him, the silk of his long hair between my fingers, hiding from the world in my world, oh the irony.
and I don't know how to tell you when we sit together and you play with the Claddagh on my finger I wish you were someone else but you'll do I guess &nb Simply Unfair
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The Art of Moving OnToday is not unlike that cold February day when the sun's comfort felt so far away, walled in by bricks and my own dread and chilled from the inside by my fear. And, not unlike that day, my arms wind around myself and I try to rationalize my way out of the place I find myself in, looking for a way out. There are no real solutions; be the one to destroy it first. Beg for him to change his mind. Change your own damn mind, just agree with whatever he says. Or walk away. Just walk away from all of this and pretend it never happened. Pretend you never wanted this.
But this is what I wanted. I wanted it, and I fought for it, and by all The Art of Moving On
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ForneverI'm staring at the computer screen. Oh yes. Just staring at it. I've already read the words there so many times-- --so many times I've committed them to memory-- --over and over, to this failing memory of mine.
I want to hear you read them to me just because it would mean you're here. It would mean you're alive-- you might be-- and that you still give a damn about me. Why yes, I do believe this is madness.
Why do you ask? Maybe because this tale we so enjoyed, though unrealistic, is very seductive because it feels like safety and warmth and taste Fornever
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Just a ThoughtHow far is too far to travel alone, before you're tempted to forsake everything the people you call "friends" have (supposedly) done for you? And is that really a bad thing? Are we defined by how far we've come with the assistance of these friends or by how much we've been able to achieve when our friends aren't there to help?
And why should we give our friends any credit when we spared them the horrors of our troubles for their own sake, to protect them-- even if it is to protect them from who we really are, deeper than they've seen? Does it take away from our virtue when we choose to shoulder the burden alone rather than dump i Just a Thought
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it always seems to happen

Fri Jul 24, 2009, 12:18 AM

like this

at one in the gods-forsaken morning

when I should be fast asleep.

I just so happen to be kept awake by the very distant rumble of thunder and my own ancient thoughts. So I siphon them out, rearrange them into something pretty, and then go to sleep, hoping I haven't said too much.

Well, there you are.

I've stopped trying really hard to write the past few months... and it seems that now I've stopped trying so hard, it's started to happen on its own.

"It was the only sin
To breathe you again
And not to fall apart
And leave you."

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Mood: Angsty
Listening to: Lacrimas Profundere - Lastdance

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Current Residence: The place where dreams go to die
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Small
Interests: Writing, reading, video games, gardening, my independent studies, ...sleep...
Favourite movie: FFVII: Advent Children
Favourite band or musician: Lacrimas Profundere / Dream Theater / Fates Warning / Metallica
Favourite genre of music: Doom Metal
Favourite artist: Probably the Greek classical sculptors in general; their works were beautiful.
Favourite poet or writer: My favorite poet is LORD BYRON! -swoon- And my favorite writer is Alexandre Dumas XD
Favourite photographer: Mom. XD No joke.
Favourite style of art: Favorite style? Neo-Classical! or Romantic! -sigh- back in the day...
Operating System: Windows XP Media Edition
MP3 player of choice: iPod 80G Classic
Wallpaper of choice: Pictures of Iceland & Norway
Favourite game: Final Fantasy VII
Favourite gaming platform: PS / PS2
Favourite cartoon character: Do Kuja or Reno count? X3
Personal Quote: It will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.
Tools of the Trade: Notebooks, pens, metal and caffeine.

Email: kiya_1220@yahoo.com

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Journal History

Jul 24, 2009 it always seems to happen
Jun 6, 2009 blaaaagh.
Mar 1, 2009 Gawd, another stupid character survey
Jan 20, 2009 ADD or too creative? I can't tell anymore.
Jan 14, 2009 LOOK HERE FOR BOOK INFO

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~TheMightyGeek May 22, 2009, 5:48:29 AM

Thanks for the fave.

~A-jean Mar 12, 2009, 10:04:36 PM

Thanks for the support!

~ktheretic Mar 12, 2009, 11:18:45 PM

I went and signed up for the newsletter thing too! I can't resist the adorable kitty-faces.

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Mad, bad and dangerous to know.

~TheTragicOffense Jan 20, 2009, 9:51:48 PM

Thanks for checking out my art. I really do appreciate it.

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I used to wonder were YOU are
These days I can't find where YOU're not
- mewithoutYou

~ktheretic Jan 20, 2009, 10:07:52 PM

No problem! I saw it on the front page and went "ooooo". XD I really liked it.

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Mad, bad and dangerous to know.

~TheTragicOffense Jan 21, 2009, 8:16:49 PM

Thanks.

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I used to wonder were YOU are
These days I can't find where YOU're not
- mewithoutYou

~Daevain Jan 4, 2009, 11:08:28 PM

Thank you very much for the

on "Posing Pup"

Have a cookie!

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~*Meow*~

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~ktheretic Jan 4, 2009, 11:14:12 PM

Its a great picture and the puppy was too adorable to resist. ^_^

Why thank you! I'd offer you a cookie or something in return but I am wildly inept with deviantart emoticons! XD

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Mad, bad and dangerous to know.

~Daevain Jan 4, 2009, 11:19:27 PM

Aww thank you

And just so you know, if you want to use an emoticon but aren't sure what to type: anytime you're typing something in a box on dA, on the bottom right hand corner of the box there is "Emoticons". Click on that, and it gives you the whole list.